October 9th 2013 was the day that my life forever changed. It was the day that I made up my mind to stop being a victim in life and become a champion that I felt comfortable looking in the mirror at. People do strange things when that are unhappy, I turned to drinking, becoming a workaholic, addictions and depression, it didn’t stop there but those were the main contributors to where I found myself. I was going to turn my life around starting with creating a healthy lifestyle. I was so unhealthy that I had surpassed the 200 lbs. mark on the scale. That was a big shocker to me because most of my life I was a tall, lean and active girl. If I didn’t make some changes I knew that I had a lot of health issues in my future. I decided to go cold turkey, no drinking, no giving into addictions, and to work on my depression and create healthy boundaries. That day I decided I would go for a run. I got into my exercise clothes that felt oddly constrictive. I drove to the nearest running trail and parked my car. During this time I was living in northern California and it was a brisk day. I zipped up my sweatshirt and stretched my legs acting like I had a clue as to what I was doing. My mind was in a battle, one side said there is no way you can do this, you are fat unhealthy and there is no hope for you it will be too much work. The other half of my brain was saying you’ve played sports your whole life this will be a piece of cake, get out there and go run the 3 mile trail. To my surprise both sides of my brain that day were wrong. I walked to the trail head and began to take my first stride, not to bad at first then all of the sudden about ten to fifteen feet into my run I was out of air. I was gasping and panting so hard I stopped and held my knees hoping that my lungs would fill up again.
That is where my journey could have ended, one day I ran a few feet and stopped because it was uncomfortable, too hard, cold or even not something I was capable of. I could have turned around and walked back to my car and gone home knowing I was a failure that didn’t have enough strength to take control of my life and make a change. Instead I gasped for air and stood back up that day I walked the 3 mile trail. Quitting gets you nowhere in life, but struggles reveal what you are truly made of. I knew that day I had what it took to get healthy and take charge of my own destiny. I ran at least 5 days a week accepting the challenge that lay before me each day, celebrating each run that I was able to go an extra 2 feet. Sure enough within months I was running 2 miles without stopping in the middle gasping for air. I was replacing my drinking and addictions etc. with running and working out. Building a healthy life for myself became my new addiction.
I have included some photos from my fitness and health journey. It wasn’t easy but it was worth it. I have now maintained my healthy lifestyle including weight, no drinking or addictions, no more depression and a healthy balance in life with great relationships. The first two photos are of me at my heaviest and while I was very unhealthy. Take into consideration that my weight doesn’t look like a ton but I am 5 feet 9 inches tall so I did hide it well. I encourage everyone that wants to change their life for the better to start today, don’t wait. There will never be a perfect time to start your journey, you just have to jump into it. Please feel free to comment or ask questions if you have any. I love to share my experiences with others in hopes that people will feel empowered and hopeful to start taking charge of their life. You are not a victim to your circumstances, or your past, you are capable of great things and changing one thing today will make all the difference in the world.